.Sunday, November 29, 2009 ;
10:43 PM
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I'll be waiting .
gonna change skin soon though.. dunno when want to.. cant find any skins i like.
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10:40 PM
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I'll be waiting .
wa... wan cry le..=.= 3 days in a row dreamt about school...
1st day dreamt late for "O" levels geog paper..=.= (think too far ba..)
2nd day dreamt late for school..=.=
3rd day dreamt went back school for cca..
all is 2010 one..=.= wth sia..
haix boring lately mapling o well next weekend working then media club chalet so its work then play!@#!
.Monday, November 23, 2009 ;
8:56 PM
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I'll be waiting .
haha... mapling nowadays ... so bored..
.Sunday, November 22, 2009 ;
10:01 PM
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I'll be waiting .
argh i must have been SUPER BORED to have posted the previous post..=.= i cant believe i just got bored..=.= aiya watever lor... gonna work thursday and friday =) money come and money go..=.=
Haix...~ i still remember around 8766 hours ago...(1 year) exactly this date... but around this time...so many wrong things.... i shouldn't have stepped over the line..
.. Things do change don't they?
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12:01 AM
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I'll be waiting .
looking to a boring weeked mapling..=.= play play play eyes gorge out le la..=.=
haix still sian wishes things to go back... should stop dreaming now... when do fantasies ever come true? o well
.Friday, November 20, 2009 ;
9:48 PM
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I'll be waiting .
o.o 3 days no update gonna explode le
when was it ever silent mode = emo? cannot be in deep thought?
Why stop and keep commenting? i thought dont turn back? just go on ahead with life and leave this imbecile at 1 corner right? like i didnt even exist
yea lor im supposed to quietly go chalet, smile smile here smile smile there and have 'fun' while my frens go for a job interview? when did i ever say that i wasnt looking for a job. Before school ended most of the class was saying got lobang must tell hor, in the end? all go together and im left to rot 1 side, Question of the year: AM I TRANSPARENT?
If your answer is yes i will suggest u close this browser.
If your answer is no then why does everyone and i mean EVERYONE treat as if im transparent unless im needed?
I dont eat glass or crystal for breakfast lunch and dinner for the past 16 years For Everyone's Information...
Whatever le i don't really want to care anymore, ask here ask there, when i ask something people think i kpo, dumb or pathetic. Then when i don't ask i will not know anything. So what to do? Ask or don't ask?
I wonder is it that much to ask for things to go back to before all this nonsense started? I dont want to cross that invisible boundary, what awaits on the other side is not worth the time and effort.. Was it something i said or did that made things change?
.Tuesday, November 17, 2009 ;
12:30 AM
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I'll be waiting .
o-o finished 2 days of work...now so bored le find another one!! where? dunno... when? dunno... how? dunno... haix.. tomorrow going bank... amk hub..=.= o well there goes my salary
why is it that the tension is so high between us at this time of the year.. same thing 365 days ago... i cant think of any reason im confused now not sure what to do...
.Monday, November 16, 2009 ;
3:53 PM
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I'll be waiting .
All i can hope for now is some company...
.Sunday, November 15, 2009 ;
11:44 PM
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I'll be waiting .
waow back from work... crap no ppl one sia..
I thought again this time in a clear state of mind.. i am veri competitive and get jealous easily.. that affected my view recently.. but now im freshened up i know what to do... life is hard true we all have to take separate paths someday so im just gonna let nature take its course and hang on to that little thread that i am hanging on..
i want to find a job that i cna work with my friends.. its not the money its the experience i can have with them.. the good , the okayokay and the bad.. where i become a listening ear..
=) good nights all/morning
.Saturday, November 14, 2009 ;
11:53 PM
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I'll be waiting .
it feels like i am alone... wanting to go blind and deaf so i wont really have to see or hear anything... finding another part-time job now..quite sianz though so many opportunities but i just seem invisible, i dont want the always be left out, always asking myself why? the answer is always the same, people just dont care... it is already said i always tio pangseh, a little is okay but if it keeps happening/ repeating even getting pangseh also will sian one it seems people who are close to me dont seem to really know what is happening or they just dont care...i want to know that people still care but with these events i cant really say im fine... i just wnana go deaf now so i dont have to hear things that arent meant for me to hear...
i just want to hold those dear to me close but it seems its just floating away, i care too much about other people but do they do the same? yes, no, maybe...
if there are really such thing as hope and miracles, why arent they happening? i have been hoping for a long time now, nothing seems to be happening, i have tried over and over again, i just want things to go back to when it was all laugh and no sadness, it seems impossible now...
i still remember just last year around this time... i made the worst mistake of my life and regretted, i was forgiven but for how long?...those were fun times we had but it wasnt meant to last was it?...right now i regretted the many mistakes i made...there is nothing i can do at all to bring it back so confused at life...cant wait for my life to end... all the sadness and loneliness gone all disappeared and gone for good...
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4:25 PM
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I'll be waiting .
wow still quite shaken from the chalet's aftermath..=.= slept like 10 hrs today wth?.. sian ar!! cant find 2nd part-time job.. and tomorrow and monday got taxi survey at toa payoh...=.= veri sian one leh... no ppl!!! also no one pei me..=.= rotting at toa payoh tomorrow !
.Friday, November 13, 2009 ;
12:04 PM
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I'll be waiting .
wow back from 410's chalet!!! woo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
let me describe in detail if i can... 1st i bussed 88 with jw to white sands then walk to chalet after that talk cock sing song play card blast music then suddenly awwwww.. power trip.. sian la found out air-con spoil so change room!! once we changed room we started the fire, then cook cook cook alot ppl come then eat eat eat...when darius^2, steven and franklin go watch movie me, zhihao, aloysius, nicholas and hweekiang washed the floor..=.= was quite funny like 5 maids.. then texas...=.=
2nd morning... 7am ...Me, hweekiang, darius tio, aloysius, nicholas and zhihao went to the beach for some air and see sunrise then become go catch jellyfish.. we are cruel people..=.= torture the jellyfish(mostly zhihao la..) after taht 9am go swimming or play water..=.= till 10.. then go dry up and go play pool(billard) play 3 hrs then go wild wild wet!! didnt get to play slide up though... the other rides were fun and we had catching ....So reckless at WWW... will be more careful next time ...
9pm.. movie!!! watched 2012.. veri sad sia most die..=.= really hope 2012 not happening sia..=.=
12am reach back chalet and texas awhile and slept.. 9am!! wake up pack and bb to chalet and hello home!!!
Sorry
it was my fault that you got injured
i couldn't do anything to help
for caring so much till you thought i was treating you as a kid...
well couldnt really take photos... phone had a limited battery life there.. no bring charger..oh well try to get more next time
.Tuesday, November 10, 2009 ;
12:11 PM
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I'll be waiting .
update!!! rawr 1st of all i would like to say thank you all... spam me facebook..=.= ty for the wishes...and finally i would like to conclude about dinner... O_o pizza..=.= simple la cousins and family couldnt make it to dinner ytd so today make up im gonna spam!!!....
i tried but it still seems impossible...
.Monday, November 2, 2009 ;
11:30 PM
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I'll be waiting .
O_o few days of gaming.. now dam sianz le.. I wanna work but where find?... Tomorrow is the start of bridging lets go!!hopefully after that got thing do.. can star in new tv series le.. i make one Job Hunters..=.=
Positive attitude for the next 2 weeks lets go
